As You Wish Reviews: Obsession & Sacrifice by Tiffany Carmouché

What is your name?
They tell me it is Nicole, Nicole Carlisle. I really don’t feel like a Nicole however.

Is there a nickname you’re known by? Do you prefer it?
I love it when Dylan calls me baby. He’s so sexy. I can’t believe he was my boyfriend. Bradley calls me Nikki.

Nicole Carlisle

What is your birth date and current age?
It is bad but I never asked them. I know I am at least 21 because I am legal to drink! Bradley says I like Margaritas and Tequila shots.

What is your height, weight and build?
I’m little. Just over 5 foot. Dylan’s so tall. He makes me feel so delicate. I guess I am a little over 100 pounds but they don’t have a scale in the bathroom. Both of them are pretty perfect so I guess they don’t care about their weight.

What is your hair color and style, eye color, and skin tone?
My hair is an darkish auburn brown, and my eyes are brown as well. I get tan in the summer but now…I am pretty much porcelain white-it is Alaska in the winter, not much sunbathing in the snow.

Do you have any scars, tattoos, piercings? What do they mean to you?
Yeah, I am reminded every time I look at them I am lucky to be alive. I don’t look at them that way most of the time though. I feel ugly. I trace the horrible lines with my fingertips and wish they would disappear.

How much pride do you take in your appearance?
I love it when I get to dress up to go somewhere. Since the accident, once I graduated from my oh so stylish hospital robe, I lounge around in sweats.

How do you feel about your appearance? Favorite / most hated features?
My scars I really hate my scars.

What is your preferred style of clothing for the opposite sex?
God, both Dylan and Bradley look good in anything. Bradley never wears tight shirts that showcase what a sexy body he has. If I hadn’t seen him getting out of the shower, I don’t think I would have realized it. Dylan, his clothes never camouflages his beautifully sculpted muscles. Probably jeans and a t-shirt although when Dylan dresses up, he looks stunning.

Nicole Carlisle

Who are your parents?
I don’t remember them. I have little flashes here and there, but I don’t remember.

What is the driving force / motivation in your life?
I just want to remember. I want to remember who I was, what I did, who I loved,… you can’t imagine waking up and not remembering who you are. Even tiny glimpses into my past are cherished.

What crisis are you facing at the start of the story?
I’m dying. Yeah. Kinda sucks!

What makes this crisis such a challenge for you in particular?
This whole journey in my life has been a challenge. It is amazing what you take for granted. I can’t imagine what would have happened if I didn’t have Bradley or Dylan there to help me.

What do you believe happens when you die?
I think about that all the time. They say I did die for a few moments. I don’t remember anything though. It would be cool if I did. I could write a book about it. Or paint it. I remember waking up and seeing this amazing glow around Dylan and Bradley. It was almost as if they were angels and taking me to heaven. I felt comforted. I wasn’t afraid. But I am alive! I am alive!

What belief / person / institution would you die to defend?
That is easy, my daughter.

Who has hurt you the worst in your life, and how?
Well I would have to say this psychotic killer ruined my life. Apparently he had been stalking me for a while. That is scary to me. To think someone is watching you and you have no idea. See these scars? He put me in the hospital. Yes, by far it would be him!

Who have you hurt the worst?
My daughter. I hope one day she will forgive me. What kind of mother forgets her own child?

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Is your family currently close? Are they a source of support or stress?
My mom and dad are amazing. We are incredibly close. When I moved in with Ronald he wouldn’t let me see them. I don’t know how I could have let him do that to me. But they are a big part of my life.

Nicole Carlisle

Have you ever been abused? If so, how? How do you feel about it now?
I went to Alaska to get away from my ex, Ronald. It got pretty bad. He put me in the hospital more than once. I don’t know why I didn’t leave him for so many years. I guess, he was my first love, and I thought he was just going through a phase. When he beat me in front of my daughter, that is when I knew I had to have him put away. The way he He screamed at her when she was crying… I worried if I didn’t, he could hurt her too. There was no way I was going to let anything happen to my baby. When he got out of prison, let’s just say he wasn’t very happy about it.

What is your relationship status at the start of the story?
Single and free!

Describe your past relationships. How many? Who? Why did they end?
Ronald, he was my first and only. We had a daughter together. But when we moved in together he really changed.

What is your worst habit / vice?
Can trust be a vice?
I have been called really naïve, hard headed and smack worthy! I guess I get the naïve part from my folks. We try and see the good in everyone. Sometimes, however, I trust people more then I should.

What is your most cherished possession?
A customer at the bar was going through stuff in his attic and getting rid of stuff from the previous tenants. He found a locket and since he only had sons he asked if I wanted it. I put Jessica’s picture inside it. When we are away from each other, I have a little piece of her with me. I hardly ever take it off.

Whom would you contact first to share good news?
That is such a hard question because there are 3 people I would go to. Emily my best friend--I tell her everything! She is the one I ran away to Alaska with. But Bradley, he has become like my guy best friend. I love it when the club is slow and I can spend hours talking to him at the bar. And then there is Dylan. He is so different then I thought he was going to be. I would tell all of them.